Death my only friend
Now at last I woo thee
Having died a million deaths
And birthed a million times
Each moment that I fled from thee.
Breathing a few breaths
Between births and deaths
Passionately indulging in each with
the joy to just be!
From the moment I was born
you wooed me
with every new sun of every new dawn
with every sickness that I survived
and through child births when I wished you away
even as life’s alluring treasures
swung me sky-high in their sway
and in the very next breath
dashed to dust and reduced
like a fickle mistress flirted
beguiling me, enticing me
till I was seduced
succumbing to promises untrue that be.
In the outward ‘doing’ I forgot the inward ‘being’
losing the language of loving and longing
while the salt of tears kept festering my wounds
and the self lost all sense of belonging.
My tongue honey sweet and my heart so bitter
I kept putting the salve
of glamour and glitter
on the scars of what I’ve seen
the scars of what I’ve been
scars that I probe
wanting to freshen fading memories
trying to salvage a few episodes of ecstasy
that were my share of life’s joys
but always edged with the lace of agony.
Feverishly with forgetful wrinkled fingers
I darn the frayed edges of memories
but only images of decayed doings linger
with half black there was only half the white
with half wrong I could only be half right.
Now I tire of the double faced goddess of life
Hearing your music as you beckon me
Drowning the stifled cries of my screams
When nightmares come
to choke my dreams
And as I tire of too long a living
In the dualities of life
Oh! DEATH, my only friend allow me to surrender
All struggle and strife
As you come to release me
From problems and pain
Wiping out all losses all gain
Having relished all that life offered me
I’ve given it back my best!
And in the abiding peace of your embrace
I now lay me down to rest!